hello i hate the milquetoastification of indie fiction

…and you should, too.

Reader, reader. What have we here? A blog post? This must really be something special. Regina rarely posts actual blog entries, and even more rarely starts a post on her site with ‘i hate’ instead of ‘i love.’ Yet, this where we find ourselves. I just need to vent a little: moreover, I need to implore you, reader, to think about what I am writing here, because I mean it sincerely.

I woke up this morning to find another horror author, whose pen name and work shall not be named, had a year-old book blocked an Amazon–an action that most likely occurred because somebody complained about it. A horror book. In the horror category. By a known author of extreme horror.

This is really sticking in my craw because I had a similar situation earlier in the month concerning a book published on the website Godless.com, which is meant specifically for horrific, shocking, boundary-pushing horror fiction that can (or should) not be published anywhere else. Unbeknownst to me, somebody I know–and at that point respected–went behind my back to the site creator to complain the piece, a 4500 word piece of shock horror comparable to many other pieces on the site. Is it the best piece I’ve ever written in my life? Of course not, I wrote it in an afternoon to be shocking and depraved, and to make readers question why they read this sort of fiction. But I stand by the piece, and the emotional reaction it evidently triggered in this person indicates to me that the piece is successful.

That being said, I have been affected for almost a month by this ridiculous scenario. I feel censorious eyes peering over my keyboard and into my mind as I try to think of something to write, and for the past weeks just a bit of my joy has been sapped from me whenever I do make it to the keyboard. This is the real goal the person had by first going to the Godless.com creator, then by sending me a personal message that amounted to a drive-by when they refused to reply. The person was offended and upset by the work, and when someone is upset, they want to upset the person who upset them. The motive for demanding another person remove a piece of art from circulation, whatever the quality, can only be a malicious one.

There are people out there who want writers to suck. I don’t mean just vindictive book bloggers, either. There are writers who want other writers to suck. There are people who have nothing to do with the world of publishing, who haven’t read a book since high school (or maybe haven’t graduated it) who want writers to suck. This latter group is made of people who pile-on to a situation on Twitter or Facebook so they can enjoy criticizing a content creator for a work they know nothing about. As for the rest, the frustrated writers who take pleasure in trashing the works of other writers, this is a truly lowly sort upon whom I’ll waste little time other than to say they are doomed to evolve into vindictive book bloggers, their works unread by the community that has long-since seen them for what they are.

But why would anyone want another person’s work to suck, Regina? Surely you’re looking at this the wrong way. These good, wholesome, neighborly souls are only concerned. They want to keep readers from reading “bad” books, so they leave informative 1-star reviews everywhere they possibly can. They want to keep writers from publishing (or preferably from writing at all) “bad” books, so they complain to Amazon and other platforms in the name of having the books taken down–thus, also, protecting these poor, helpless readers from the bad, bad fiction that offended the tattle-tale.

These are their stated goals, I will give you that. But, reader, this sort of person who can’t leave well enough alone actually has another goal seated in their heart of hearts. No matter what they tell themselves, the type of person who complains about a book is doing so for self-motivated reasons. If outside of the publishing/reading industry, they tend to be jealous of success in general and simply enjoy the schadenfreude that comes from latching onto a good public witch hunt. If they are a reader, then it is because they were so offended by the book that they want to hurt the author in their turn. And if they proclaim to be a fellow writer, then they can have one goal and one goal only: to rein in their competition until one of them sings a swansong and quits publishing altogether…or at least publishing in their genre.

Some writers believe that, rather than writing to the market, the market should conform to their tastes–and that other writers, for not doing the same, are wrong or in some way lacking in quality. For these authors, the only possibility they have of success, so far as they can see, is proving to readers that their taste is “wrong.” They write long reviews of other authors’ works that belittle the piece as much as possible before ending in snide urgings like, “But hey, if writing is your passion, keep doing it!” They critique in-progress works shared in confidence in such a way as to hamper their final form, rather than helping hone them to success. Most vilely, they report books to the platforms on which they’re published so that even extreme horror fiction properly categorized has no chance to remain for sale. To play it safe, deplatformed writers may end up writing milder things.

And that is exactly what these petty agitators want. They do not want to see boundaries pushed and authors inspired by one another. They do not want to look evil in the face or think that someone may disagree with them. They do not want to see others successful when their own books can’t seem to get past a handful of reviews and a couple of sales a month. They want only their own immediate success, and they just cannot understand why shitting on others won’t make it come any faster.

I am writing this entry today to urge you, reader, to never be like these people. Love fellow writers. Support them. Encourage them even if you don’t personally enjoy their work. Celebrate their successes, because one day they’re going to celebrate yours. Don’t be mediocre, and don’t let anyone tell you that you should be. When people are upset about your art, upset them more.

And if you’re a reader only? As Shirley Jackson once said to a rude critic, “If you don’t like my peaches, don’t shake my tree.” Let extreme horror grow in its profane groves of eyeball bushes and vaginal trees. It’s not doing anyone any real harm, and if you think that you’re worried it is, well…stop and ask yourself if that’s really the problem you have with it.

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hello i’m hard at work

THIS POST IS BROUGHT TO YOU BY THE BURNINGSOUL SAGA.

CLICK HERE TO READ BOOK I!

wow a real blog post.

okay first of all, thank you everybody who made bloom & dark: book i of the burningsoul saga such a smash hit. for a new series to hit #17 in dark fantasy and garner 36 amazon unsolicited amazon reviews in its first 2 weeks on the market is exceedingly great, and i am so amazed and touched to see it happen to me. what does this mean?

i am hard at work on burningsoul book ii, waaaaaaaay ahead of schedule. but i also have certain pre-existing obligations, including but not limited to

  • the Valentine’s Day release of DOTTIE FOR YOU Season One in paperback
  • a certain contract job not yet to be named (woo mysterious hype noises)
  • editing familiarity, finally, a task i have been trying to get to since Q2 2020
  • editing tale of rho book 4
  • DOTTIE FOR YOU Season 2
  • the first SEDUCED BY SABINE collection, as well as the paperback of BE MY BULLY

and that’s just what i know about. i will be honest with you guys and warn you now that because of burningsoul book ii, everything after the contract may get pushed back by a month or so from its current projected timeframe…however, i can assure you the results will be worth it. i am really enjoying writing this series, and really loving the influence had upon it by both the ring cycle and, specifically, parsifal. it is a great experience not just to write, but to see so many people still reading book one! if you haven’t checked it out yet, please be sure to give it a read.

finally, as i pass 100 subscribers on my mailing list, i just want to say–thank you all from the bottom of my heart for making my work a success. i am so happy and so proud to see the back catalogue i have managed to create in a mere nine months, and am so excited to see where things go from here. fair warning: until now, i have published stories weekly, and i still want to publish my work as quickly as possible–certainly several times a month. however, to write you longer and better stories, i need more time to focus. therefore, moving forward, don’t be surprised if a week or two sometimes passes without a new publication. it just means i am hard at work bringing you more stories to love!

anyway, thank you again, everyone, for reading my writing and being so kind about my work! i love you all and look forward to writing more great stories for you, erotica and otherwise!

ps: looks like while i wrote this blogpost the book got up to 37 reviews! you guys are too kind to me, thank you all so very much! xoxo

pps: have you checked out any of my podcasts, or the slate article where i was interviewed about consensual cannibalism?

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hello i love taking your money via patreon and giving you goodies in return

That’s right, baby: your one and only Degenetrix is now on Patreon. Want a specially commissioned story just for you? A fun enamel DOTTIE FOR YOU pin available only to mid-tier Patrons and contest winners? Just want to get an exclusive story once a month that nobody outside of Patreon is allowed to see? Check out the offered tiers for all that and more! Your support allows me to create longer and better books, so the more you can give, the more you can get in return.

CLICK HERE TO BECOME A DEGENERATE

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hello i love tumblr

at least, now i do since reddit suddenly banned /r/dolcettkingdom and a bunch of other eroguro themed subreddits (wtf!). anyway, check out my tumblr, it will basically be a stream of new covers and funky reblogs, but that’s fun in and of itself. click here to tumble after your degenetrix

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hello i love bad girls who get good whippings

and i also love having 20 titles on the kindle store. yes, between may 13th and june 29th of this year i have posted 20 titles to the kindle store including one bundle and, two novellas, and a few titles currently in preorder state. i’m very pleased with this start to my amazon erotica career and think it all the more appropriate that today’s new semi-standalone short (read for $2.99 or for FREE on KindleUnlimited) stars that devious and spankable former senior class vice president of griswald school for unruly girls, rhoda dendron. have the pleasure of reading about felix eirwen giving that incorrigible brat a taste of the razor strop and while you’re at it enjoy a sprinkling of heterosexual dd/lg shower sex. this second semi-standalone short is set in the background of be my bully episode 8, so you might enjoy this steamy short even more if you’re caught up with the series. if you’re not, there’s no time like the present.

oh, and ps, you might notice this is bonus episode 2bonus episode 1, also starring rhoda and felix, is available only to mailing list subscribers. fill out your email in the form at the bottom of this page and i’ll send you a download link for that episode and more!

CLICK HERE TO READ “SQUEAKY CLEAN”

Eighteen-year-old Rhoda Dendron is the kind of brat who requires thorough attention. (Un)lucky for Felix Eirwen, recent dark events in the strange town of Griswald and its seemingly cursed school have left Rhoda with nowhere to turn…and both Felix and his daughter are too warm-hearted for their own good. Take Felix: he tries to be a stand-up guy, but sexy, sensual Rhoda has a way of tempting him to submit to more primitive impulses than he cares to admit he has.

Is it really so wrong to react as nature intended when a hot, athletic girl like Rhoda joins you in the shower? Who’s really to blame? That irresistibly wicked nymphomaniac? The strapping older man who just can’t say no?

Or, you know…the murderer running around the town of Griswald who landed Rhoda in Felix’s house to begin with?

This erotic semi-standalone episode contains light DDLG dirty talk and other explicit content that may not be appropriate for all readers, and some episodes of the series as a whole feature frank discussion of disturbing topics. Discretion is advised.

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hello i love elizabeth bedlam: other author spotlight fridays

maybe not every friday but some fridays i’d like to shine a light on other independent and/or small press authors who i think are amazing and who i wish i’d known about years ago. most of these authors will be free on kindle unlimited or selling shorter titles for between $.99 and $2.99. let me start this adventurous column off by recommending that (in addition to my own works, of course, which you will enjoy if you like elizabeth bedlam and all of which are free on kindle unlimited at this link) you take a peek at horrotica pioneer elizabeth bedlam, the queen of b-movie horror erotica and an author i think every horror fan should read. and comedy fans. and erotica fans. basically, if you like ed wood, pulp fiction in general, puppet combo games and other vintage horror-inspired media, transgressive fiction, or just a fun fucked-up erotica story far from your usual kindle store bullshit, i would strongly encourage you to check out the one and only elizabeth bedlam. not only that but her productivity is phenomenal and i’m so jealous i’d like to cut off her precious hands and try all sorts of experiments to get their magic out for my own use. look at some of these great titles you’re missing out on:

just look at those titles. look at those covers. oh my god. these aren’t even my favorites and i swear every time i look they just get better and better. i love everything about them. i love the aesthetic effect and i love the concepts and have i mentioned i love her titles? holy shit. if they aren’t enough to convince you to invest fifteen minutes in reading one of her amazing shorts for free on kindle unlimited (follow this link) then you just have no sense of humor or are generally uncool and i don’t think i can help you. but if you wish horror and erotica could both stop taking themselves so fucking seriously for at least the length of a short story, please read elizabeth bedlam. if you have even the slightest iota of a sense of humor and love of kitsch, you’ll be super glad you did.

and also read me. regina watts. whose works including the horrotica cannibal love story dottie for you can be found here.

if you would like to be considered for an other author fridays post, talk to me about trading blogs, or are interested in exchanging reviews, you may do so through a message to publicity@paintedblindpublishing.com with ATTN: Regina in the title. i’ll consider everybody but i have peculiar tastes as u may be aware if u kno my work. xxxx

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hello be my bully is an erotic satire about porn

and you can buy episode 1 for the low low price of $0.99 for the next two days if you shop on Amazon.com or .co.uk…and i damn well know all you uk pervos are lining up to see a bunch of american schoolgirls getting caned, paddled, etc. on the various porn sites you have to buy licenses from mummy government or whatever to look at, so don’t act like you can’t drop 99 cents to read about it.

the other day i saw somebody really get chewed out on the subreddit for erotica authors because they had the A U D A C I T Y to say that they found erotica preferable to pornography because of the exploitative or sometimes violent nature of filmed content. some butthurt asshole really jumped down their throat about how they’re taking advantage of an industry built on the backs of sex workers blah blah blah, whatever. it’s reddit, people will get upset about anything. but this post sequence really bothered me because ultimately i do personally believe filmed pornography is intellectually damaging, compared to literary erotica which can actually be uplifting. for instance reading justine by the marquis de sade really did liberate me, and that’s in part what it is designed to do–to demonstrate with gratuitous and sometimes hilarious acts of truly depraved cruelty how futile and self-destructive it is to try to hold on to some kind of “moral” stance on sexuality in this or any world.

has any porno ever been filmed with character development? has one of these movies ever had an explanation for why all these step-siblings and babysitters are horny and damaged enough to possess literally zero sense of the longterm consequences of their exploits? of course not, that’s not what these movies are for. these movies are for getting off, kind of like erotica. but what i think that pissed off reddit poster failed to understand is that erotica pre-dates the invention of the camera, you dipshits. yes incredibly, long before people figured out they could film each other fucking, they had no choice but to write down stories and drawings of other people fucking. for a long, long long long time sexualized stories were actual stories with characters and vague plots about as thin as the pulp paper they were written on. then porn showed up and said, ‘boy, film’s expensive and people don’t want to fast forward, let’s cut out all the story and get to the fucking.’

great on the one hand, but on the other, creative hand it creates this strange porn universe with its own logic and total lack of rules or social structure. even in the universe of the marquis de sade there were characters who were ostensibly morally righteous but in porn it’s just a bunch of family members, teachers, friends, doctors, lawyers, bosses, etc, just fucking everybody that moves. and sometimes i’ve watched these movies and the premises are so absurd they literally turn me off, which is impressive, let me tell you.

i started be my bully as what stephen king calls my “toy train,” which is his term for the story you write on the side, just for fun, just to decompress from your regular writing. and it was always intended to be an erotica inspired by pornographic spanking movies, but because of that the premise naturally developed by really the end of the first chapter (called now ‘episode’) into being a satirical one. the more i tried to write about these scenarios i had seen popularized in porn, the more i realized how absurd they were and how impossible they were to depict in characters with any depth without exploring the issue of grave trauma and its effects on the developing brain. real people simply don’t act like porn characters; no one can behave with the casual disregard for consequence shown by all the porn archetypes and expect to maintain any semblance of a functioning life. but if porn archetypes were real, expanded upon characters, what would they be like?

thus, be my bully came into steady existence. episode 9’s cover and metadata has just been uploaded to the amazon store for approval. now that i’m ahead on episodes of dottie it’s looking like be my bully will be my main project for the next few weeks, except for a paranormal horrotica novella i’m working on. you weirdos will like it. anyway buy be my bully episode 1 for 99 cents and then read the rest of the series for $2.99 apiece…or FREE on Kindle Unlimited.

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hello you can have 2 free stories if you join my mailing list

yes that’s right out of the goodness of my heart i have sacrificed approximately 6000 of my precious words FOR FREE for anyone who is willing to join up to the mailing list. we got one for the be my bully fans and one for the dottie-crazy perverts…and i wouldn’t recommend getting the two mixed up. don’t you hate it when you’re trying to read a hot ageplay standalone erotica and you get the cannibal necrophilia one instead?

click here to join the mailing list or just put in your email below and get links to two free stories plus the be my bully spotify playlist right now!

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hello i hate blogs

but my boss says i have to keep one so i get it.

my name is regina watts and i write dirty dirty fiction. i also write something called “transgressive fiction” which is a thing where when you tell people that’s what you write they immediately regret asking you what kind of fiction you write. then they say, “what’s that” and you explain “well a classic example is lolita by nabokov” and still only about 1/3 of people will understand well enough to politely change the subject. to be honest a better example (imo) is say the room by selby jr. orrrr atrocity exhibition by ballard. i was thinking about those two books a lot while writing industrial divinity, which painted blind publishing is releasing in q3/q4 of this year. it’s possible it would be safer if i said something like fight club but that’s the kind of story like the matrix where it’s just a big old red flag if somebody likes it or references it too much these days. i don’t know why it has to be that way. i like fight club and the matrix a lot but i’m embarrassed to admit it in public.

anyway, i wrote the first draft of another book last year that worked out to being almost 400,000 words long and i said holy shit, that’s a lot of words. so i edited it down and got it down very nicely and was just starting to hit a groove in the long drawn-out process of cutting out some of the more hardcore scenes of the book in order to market it as transgressive fiction instead of, you know, smut. this was oh uh maybe february of 2020 and if u are a human being alive on the planet i don’t need to tell you that um well a lot of plans got interrupted for a lot of people? and my favorite paul simon song has been ruined forever, but whatever. people are literally dying and that’s way worse than never being able to listen to “julio down by the schoolyard” without thinking it was some kind of weird psychedelic prophecy about the coronavirus and shutting down schools.

so long story short i haven’t left my house in almost three months except to take walks and two times to go downtown on brief errands and in that time i wrote another novel, industrial divinity, because painted blind publishing was expecting something from me but the in-progress, previously 400,000 word book now seems also very prescient and seems to be in need of application to the current circumstances if-you-see-what-i-am-saying. this is all a bunch of boring writer talk for “i bent over and jammed my fingers down my throat until i vomited up an ~85,000 word novel to exchange for the ~400,000 word one.” so i presented this to painted blind publishing and they were like “boy regina this is actually really interesting, let’s talk about publishing it.”

and i said they could as long as they gave me more time on the mammoth i’m still in the middle of skinning and butchering, and they did, but after we talked for a while, well–the thing with this big long book is that i wrote it specifically in the style of the marquis de sade but you know it’s like, that’s sort of hard to market because it’s these ridiculous swaths of long farty philosophy and then big gratuitous sex scenes, usually involving, uh, well, unconsenting parties or underage people or other stuff that is today you know um a little P R O B L E M A T I Q U E. but that’s why it’s transgressive fiction u kno? transgressive fiction usually contains inherently erotic elements that challenge your moral disposition, sexuality, self, etc. based on my research (not THAT kind of “research” you fucking perv real research like reading biographies) i don’t think the marquis was morally identifying with his hot evil characters until later in his life. he fully understood the trope of punishing characters who fail to socially conform, and that’s why justine‘s eponymous lil protagonist gets oh sorry spoiler alert struck by a lightning bolt while inside her sister’s house, which is absolutely one of the most hilarious endings of all time. justine fails to conform to the evil morality expected of her in her evil world and so god punishes her for it in the context of that evil world. the marquis created a fictional universe, like the dc or marvel or twilight universe, where the defining factor isn’t superheroes or vampires but libertines almost superhuman in their capacity to give and receive sexual violence and do it without consequence.

and that, my friend, is some shit i admire. some trailblazing work there, inspiring. that’s really the kind of work i’m doing here with my in-progress book familiarity but simultaneously why i’m hesitant to release it, because i mean who doesn’t consider the divine marquis erotica? do i really want to be associated with transgressive erotic fiction?

so i made a penname, my magickal motto, soror vitam a.p.m., soror vitam for short. i got really into magick while writing familiarity and also specifically into sex magick. and after finishing industrial divinity, which is effectively about a sex worker, i somehow got to thinking, ‘am i a hypocrite?’ because, like, i was so hung up on the erotic aspects of my work being somehow disgraceful to me, but i didn’t have a problem writing transgressive fiction that wasn’t erotic. no problem with things like drugs or murder. what was my problem with sex? what was my problem with the most natural way to expand consciousness and develop intimacy between two people and in heterosexual couples literally create life?

the problem is that i’ve been writing erotica for years and years and years and yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaars and maybe two people know. and because of that it’s been like this side hobby for a long long time and i did do a super brief ghostwriting thing which is where i learned the discipline to write so much. but it was like damn if i can write so much i should just write for myself, so i did. and then all this virus shit happened and i finished industrial divinity and i had be my bully which i’ve been sitting on for years. for about that same length of time i’ve been passively studying posts in the /r/eroticauthors subreddit and after finally looking at a few of the data collections on there it was just like…oh!!!! kindle unlimited is like netflix, but for books! that’s why all these shorts do so well on there: it’s like bingereading. holy shit, i get it, duh.

so that’s the story of how painted blind publishing founded painted blue publishing and how i also developed this penname, regina watts (o sorry u thought this was my real name??? lol hope not) to sell my erotica. what i wasn’t expecting was to have such a strong immediate response. there have been almost 5000 pages read of the first four episodes of be my bully in less than a month. it’s incredible. back when i was really young (just a mere griswald girl myself) i got my start publishing short stories on deviantart and now in retrospect it’s like damn girl you coulda got that MONEY. but it’s okay because now i’m getting that money and it’s so nice, dude, honestly. thank you so much for reading this blog and learning a little more about me on the way. i promise future ones won’t be so long and stupid but like i said the boss told me i had to so here you go.

BUY BE MY BULLY EPISODES 1-4 ON AMAZON OR READ THEM FOR FREE ON KINDLE UNLIMITED BECAUSE YOU’RE CHEAP but it’s ok i still love you thank you for reading xoxoxo

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